Sacred Life Sunday: Being a brave mama

my gorgeous boy left on friday evening for a school trip to germany - he'll be gone five days...
it's his first trip aboard without us, so i'm trying to be a brave mama...
i had a horrible dream on friday night and woke at 3am - one of those dreams where your worst fears play out in front of you - i was afraid to go back to sleep - so i didn't!!
i'm sure he's having an awesome time - and that's what i so want for him - but it's soooo hard to let go... it's his first day at nursery all over again...
as he grows up, it should be easier, but it isn't - the fears just get bigger in proportion...
this is the sacred life of motherhood - feeling the fear, but letting your kids experience life anyway!! now i know how my mum felt when i announced i was going to live in kenya for a year, knowing no one and no written confirmation of my teaching post... it was a great adventure for me aged 22 - it must have been the worst nightmare ever for her!!!
so i say a prayer for brave mamas everywhere and promise your kids will eventually, maybe years later, understand all you went through...

Those who are willing to be vulnerable move among mysteries.

Theodore Roethke